So, today was my last day of work for 2 weeks. The next time they see me, my fate will have been determined.

I found myself looking into the eyes of a dear woman I work with and wondered what will she see in me when I come back in 2 weeks. I can be so freaky, weird, sensitive like that sometimes.

I work on Tuesday's and Wednesday's, I'm very lucky. My retrieval is scheduled for next Tuesday (+or-) so I arranged for time off knowing that I would not be fit to work. I pray I will not be fit for work! THAT would be a nightmare.

I am slowing down a bit. I am completely exhausted as the day progresses. I still feel twinges and tweaks and I can't walk as fast as normal.

I need lots and lots of beautiful eggs. I try to only think positive, great thoughts.

I love being in my pool of calm. I can get so annoyed and irritated with people on most days and I just don't allow myself right now.

A lady was flipping me off and not letting me merge onto the freeway today. I don't know what her problem was, I mean what does she do when she is trying to merge? I had my blinker on and was going with the speed of traffic. She wouldn't let me in front and then would slow down when I tried to pull behind. She was flipping me off and calling me asshole. NICE.

Normally, I would have challenged her. Today, I just smiled and waved. What a sad life she must have. I truly cannot be bothered by idiots. All of my energy is going to calm, loving thoughts.

I am so proud of myself. I tell myself that often. I need lots of encouragement. M. is calling me his Warrior. He is very proud of me.

I don't bitch, I don't complain, I am quite boring.

I don't have the energy to fight or argue or get my panties in a wad about anything.

SO UNLIKE ME!

I have my next ultrasound tomorrow a.m.. I will come home and (after posting here), I will take a nap.

I drink lots of water and sleep, sleep, sleep.

My belly is bloated. I am doing the absolute best I can do.